Hopes. Dreams. Thoughts.

Spring Schedule:

Eskimokisses5411@hotmail.com — Fri, 20 Nov 2009 15:02:19 GMT

Elementary Reading Instruction (with a 15 hour practicum)
Speech Science
Portfolio Development
Earth Science with Lab
U.S. History- Civil War to Present

I opted to only take 5 classes instead of 6 this semester since I have a lab and a practicum and this semester kicked my ass. lol But I got everything I wanted and I'm still on my 4 1/2 year track, so a lighter load will be nice.

It's sad when my schedule is considered a light load. -_- That's what I get for double majoring. lol

I can't waiiiit for Winter Break!!! I get Dec. 10th - Jan. 11th off!

Bye bye teenage years!

Eskimokisses5411@hotmail.com — Wed, 28 Oct 2009 20:35:34 GMT

I'm 20 years old today.

Doesn't that make some of you who knew me when I was little feel ancient? lol

Not really doing much for my actual birthday, but next weekend Kristen and I are celebrating our birthdays together at Disney. Should be fun. :)

I never update anymore...

Eskimokisses5411@hotmail.com — Fri, 05 Jun 2009 13:31:52 GMT

Umm....I really have nothing useful to say.

Went to Valrico this past week to visit Kriten, who will be my roommate next year at school. I missed her a lot. Then I went and saw Patrick for a bit on my way home. It was a nice week. :)

Working a lot still. Nothing's really changed in that area.

Got my brakes fixed, so now I won't die while driving or anything. Probably a good thing. lol

This week is already packed with crap to do. Work, staying with Kelly tonight, visiting Micheala and Billy Sunday...I haven't seen them in so long. :( Babysitting Tuesday, and Chris' birthday is thursday. Don't know if I'll actually see him on him birthday...depends on his plans I guess.

Oh! And of course Tues nights are Applebees karaokee with Lindsay and the girls, then Wed ladies night at the Ale House. Good times.

That's all I suppose. Time for work. -_-

Eskimokisses5411@hotmail.com — Mon, 25 May 2009 00:20:03 GMT

I'm home...yep...that's pretty much it. Back to work Tuesday. Not the best weekend ever...but eh...I've kinda been expecting it.

I miss actually spending time with my friends.

Carrie Underwood has it right....

Eskimokisses5411@hotmail.com — Wed, 20 May 2009 13:09:27 GMT

The more boys I meet...

The more I love my dog.

Heck yes!

Eskimokisses5411@hotmail.com — Wed, 29 Apr 2009 13:39:02 GMT

I made the dean's list!!!

I got 5 A's and 1 B.

The B was in Religions, saw that one coming. That class was hell. lol

Anyways...yay!

This is the way that we live....and love. -L word

Eskimokisses5411@hotmail.com — Fri, 20 Feb 2009 04:45:43 GMT

Have you ever noticed that no matter how hard you try it never works? There's always something in the way, or someone who's a better choice. And you always wonder, for once in my life, why can't I be the first choice...the better choice in that person's eyes? Why can't I be that person that they just can't get enough of and would do anything for to be with? The someone they wake up in the morning and think of.

It's like you just can't be good enough for anyone.

And then you realize you're perfectly fine the way you are, and fuck them if they don't think so.

Everyone deserves to be someone's first choice. Don't settle for anything less.

It makes me laugh histerically.

Eskimokisses5411@hotmail.com — Wed, 28 Jan 2009 21:58:00 GMT

Engaged. They're engaged. After a month.

Really?

Eskimokisses5411@hotmail.com — Thu, 22 Jan 2009 17:09:31 GMT

I feel like laughing this is so ridiculous.

Nik's new girlfriend (Kelli St. John for those of you who know her) has decided to act like we're still in high school and "start something with me." Is this for real? Cause honestly I just think it's hilarious. I haven't tried to talk to the boy or contact him in any way for over a month and she randomly sends me some stupid myspace message asking "I don't know what your problem is with me but I haven't done anything to you so I was just wondering."

Really? She's really going to try and drag me into some drama with her so that she looks like some kind of innocent victim?

EDIT: WOW.....wooowww.....new message recieved. Apparently, according to her Nik said "it wasn't too soon because I was always in the back of his mind and he's liked me for 4 years."

Really? Cause I got that line too. Good luck with that.

Eskimokisses5411@hotmail.com — Wed, 21 Jan 2009 22:04:46 GMT

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MICHEALA COFFIN! LOVE YOU WOMAN! <3

Warning! This is a slightly ranty post. lol

Eskimokisses5411@hotmail.com — Tue, 20 Jan 2009 16:08:25 GMT

So I hate that even though I'm very hungry right now I can't go eat because the effing dining hall is not open yet. And on top of that, even if I could go eat, the food would be nasty and I would not enjoy it at all unless it were tater tot day. It's sad that practically the only thing they cook well is tots.

Also, how hard is it to check your e-mail? I mean honestly! I check mine fifty frickin' times a day. Is it really so difficult for a professor to check theirs once a day or even once a week? Especially considering add/drop is this week only and they'll be getting plenty of e-mails regarding their class? I don't know about the rest of my school, but I'd personally like to get the classes I need without having to torture a simple "I consent to..." e-mail out of someone. Dear lord!

AND! Could they not tell us before break (so that, I don't know, people might actually have time to save money?) that we have a housing deposit due at the end of next month? Here, let me just pull the money out of thin air! lol So crazy. They tell us nothing and then expect us to just magically know it all.

Ok. I'm done now with the rant part.

Other than that I'm very happy with my classes and friends and the school in general. I'm just extra stressed and frustrated right now. Lots going on and not enough time to accomplish things that have to be done.

I can't wait for the weekend.

Baaahhhh

Eskimokisses5411@hotmail.com — Wed, 07 Jan 2009 14:04:17 GMT

I've been sick for about a month now, despite the fact that I was given antibiotics to take that were supposed to make it better.

It all started with peeing blood. I probably had a UTI and let it go too long without treatment. Even with meds I'm still peeing a little blood. Then I started throwing up, having high fevers on and off throughout the day of up to 103 and bad bad headaches. The throwing up eventually stopped. (I thought maybe I was pregnant, but the test said no and I got my period. So no prego.)

Now my throat is swollen, I'm still getting headaches and fevers, and this morning I found bumps on my head. Two big ones in the back and one medium size behind my ear. They're firm and hurt to touch and they weren't there before.

Needless to say I'm going to suck it up and go to my real doctor tomorrow even tho I don't have health insurance. My mom thinks there's a small possibility that the bumps could be tumors. Hopefully it's just something silly (I'm sure it's nothing too awful) that can be killed off with some good meds.

So that was my entire holiday break. I go back to school on Sunday. Woo frickin' hoo. -_-

So....

Eskimokisses5411@hotmail.com — Tue, 30 Dec 2008 15:09:18 GMT

Last night basically was no fun.

I woke up around 1:30am curled up in a ball, sweaty and shivering so hard my teeth were knocking together. Turns out I had a really bad fever. My face was red and my whole body felt like it was on fire and dizzy. I stood up to go get some water, made it to the kitchen and passed out.

My mom gave me Tylenol and a cold rag for my face and sat up with me until my fever started to go down, which was about an hour later. I was in and out of the fever all night. If it happens again today they're taking me to the emergency room.

Apparently all of this is going along with what has now turned into a kidney infection according to the doctor from hell who hardly bothered to ask my name.

Happy New Years to me.

Oh. My. God.

Eskimokisses5411@hotmail.com — Wed, 24 Dec 2008 02:50:55 GMT

I love Zoe and Molly to death, but their being extra bad tonight.

They're hyper and won't listen to anything I say and keep hurting the dog. I can't count how many times they've been in time out.

The highlight of the evening was after bath time. They were all clean and ready for bed....and Molly decided to put blue playdough all in Zoe's hair. -_- Playdough. In little girl's long curly hair.

I think it's time for sleep now.

So I've decided....

Eskimokisses5411@hotmail.com — Fri, 19 Dec 2008 15:07:19 GMT

To just forget about all this Nik crap for awhile and enjoy my holiday break.

Today Kelly, Josh, and I are getting together for dinner and a movie at Kelly's, I'll probably end up staying the night.

Tomorrow I'm going to visit Kristen in Tampa and we're going to Bush Gardens, then I'm coming home for the Solstice party, which I've never gotten to go to before, so I'm super excited! I might be a little late though....think that's alright Corinne?

Sunday I'm seeing my Steph, going shopping with my brother possibly for our family's christmas stuff, and staying at Kelly's again I think?

So for the most part I'm keeping busy and trying not to think about it. I'm hoping I'll be able to go to Naples to stay with my friend Danielle after new years for a few days as well.

Oh! New years! I'm going to St. Pete and I will be watching the ball drop with all my favorite St. Pete people. (Micheala, Billy, Leo, Steve etc...) I love being there....it's so much easier than Bradenton...no one to run into or remind me of him. I can just be happy and enjoy the company. :)

Anyways....that's all. lol

If you can't be honest, you don't deserve my time.

Eskimokisses5411@hotmail.com — Mon, 15 Dec 2008 21:13:53 GMT

Since you won't answer my calls or respond to my messages I'm just going to post this and get it all out. I'll leave it on your facebook too.

All I wanted was to fix it, and you wouldn't even listen to me. I thought after a year of dating you could give me that much. You said you loved me and that we would make it work, but apparently that was a lie too? It's not love if you won't take two seconds out of your day to consider the other person's feelings and needs.

But really, Kelli St. John? Are you serious Nik? I can't believe you're actually doing this. I know you....this isn't you at all. What happened? Were you thinking of dating her before we even decided to take a break? Is that why you didn't care or fight it at all? As if waiting less than two weeks to find someone else isn't bad enough. Did I really mean so little to you? It makes it seem like everything you ever said to me was a lie.

And how many times have you told me her and all the girls like her at MSA disgust you? Was that a lie too? If she's the kind of girl you want, I'm glad you gave up on me.

Dare you to move....

Eskimokisses5411@hotmail.com — Mon, 08 Dec 2008 00:06:05 GMT

So much better.

Nothing else needs to be said other than I made the right decision.

Does the heart mend itself if you don't want it to?

Eskimokisses5411@hotmail.com — Tue, 02 Dec 2008 12:41:23 GMT

How can something that's making me this upset be the right thing? Shouldn't I feel better now? But I don't. I'm still miserable, if not worse. I still love him.

He wasn't even remotley upset. That floors me. We dated for a year and nothing. No questions, no attempts to keep me or fix the problem....nothing. Was I really that meaningless to you Nik? Honestly....I thought you'd at least take the time to talk to me. Were you just waiting for me to do it so that you wouldn't have to? I don't understand.

I love you and I'm sorry. For so many things....I didn't want to ruin the wedding so I didn't say anything. I wanted to do it in person, but I couldn't see you Sunday, you were busy Monday, and I couldn't wait until Friday and be that cruel. I don't want it to be over. I wanted you to fight and fix it. Why wasn't I important enough for you to fight and say I was wrong?

I can't sleep.
My eyes are full of tears too tired to fall that won't go away.
When will peace come?
When will this pain fade so that I can smile again?
Why did it have to end?

19

Eskimokisses5411@hotmail.com — Sat, 22 Nov 2008 15:02:16 GMT

HAPPY BIRTHDAY NIKOLAS BOTTIGER! I LOVE YOU! <3

What a waste.

Eskimokisses5411@hotmail.com — Fri, 21 Nov 2008 16:51:21 GMT

Anyone who has read the Twilight books and liked the movie needs to get their head checked.

It was god awful.

I laughed through most of it because the acting was so bad, and the parts that were good were ruined by bad music/special effects choices.

Such a disappointment.

<3

Eskimokisses5411@hotmail.com — Wed, 12 Nov 2008 02:15:55 GMT

AHHH!

I'm doing a super amazing, sneaky, artsy project for Nik's birthday present. I only have until the 22nd to finish it, so I reeeeally hope it's all I imagined I could make it.

I've only cut myself once so far with the exacto knife. lol

Anyways, I hope he likes it. I'm making him a picture collage sorta. A guy from his fire school has been taking pictures throughout the whole year...there's literally 900-ish pictures all together. I dug through them and found the ones you can see Nik in and printed them out in black & white. Right now I'm in the process of spacing out letters that spell "NIKOLAS" on matting with a little heart in the space between the L and A. Now I need to cut it out (wish me luck) and the pictures will go in the letters. I'm excited! :)

New Taylor Swift=AMAZING!!!

Fearless.

Eskimokisses5411@hotmail.com — Tue, 11 Nov 2008 17:53:30 GMT

Taylor Swift's new CD came out today!! Woo! I need to go get it.

I can't believe we have class today. Every other school in the world doesn't, but we do. That's how we have shorter semesters and longer breaks.

Two things about my day to amuse/amaze you...

Eskimokisses5411@hotmail.com — Tue, 04 Nov 2008 03:11:06 GMT

First:

We're doing a huge mailing at work, and among the lists of names I found Potter, Riddle, and Salazar. So wonderful. lol

Second:

In Spirit (My asl signing song club) we're sining Seasons of Love and Finale B from RENT for AIDS day. It's purdy and I have Joanne's solo! Woooo'

The end.

"And stands there like a lion greiving...nodding disbelieving..." -Elligies

Eskimokisses5411@hotmail.com — Mon, 03 Nov 2008 13:21:37 GMT

I feel so awful and I don't know what there is I can do to make him feel better except send him a nice letter and wait for the weekend to give him a big hug.

I'm such a bitch too. I called him yesterday and left a semi-pissed off message for him because I hadn't heard from him in 4 days....and when he calls me back he tells me his dog killed four of his birds.

He's had them for 8 years....so I know how bad he's hurting....he loved those birds.

I just feel so terrible and helpless. I'm frickin' all the way in St. Augustine (which I hate)and there's no way for me to get to him until the weekend. By then it won't even matter.

Vote.

Eskimokisses5411@hotmail.com — Fri, 31 Oct 2008 15:18:57 GMT

I'm voting today.

Everyone who's registered should make sure they do too. Last time it was only a difference of 400 votes that could have swung it the other way...do you really want that to happen again?

Go vote. It's important.